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Case of Tifa
Tifa walked
the last customer out of her store Seventh Heaven before returning inside to
clean up in the galley. The room was dimly lit with minimal but adequate
lighting. No one else was there besides Tifa. Just days ago work didn't seem
that long. She enjoyed working along side her family, forgetting all her worries
but now, the water had gotten cold and she wasn't getting anywhere with all the
dirty tableware. Tifa tried turning on all the lights that illuminated the store
in an effort to change the atmosphere. For a brief moment, the store litup but
the unstable electricity supply didn't keep it that way for long. The store was
dimly lit again. A surge of uneasiness came over her. She wondered if she was
all alone in the house. She couldn't stand it as the thought crossed her mind,
and called out a girl's name.
"Marlene!"
Before
long, soft footsteps could be heard coming from the children's room, deep inside
the store and Marlene appeared.
"Ssssh,"
she frowned, putting a finger to her lips. Tifa apologized but was relieved.
"Denzel
finally fell asleep."
"Was he in
pain?"
"Yeah."
"You could
have gave me a shout."
"Denzel
didn't let me."
"I see..."
Tifa
blamed herself for letting the children worry about her.
"What's
wrong?"
"Hmmm...
What do you mean?" Tifa answered meaninglessly, trying to hide her feelings.
Marlene looked around the store where only Tifa stood.
"Did you
feel lonely?" The little girl saw through everything. "I'm not going anywhere."
"Thanks.
You should sleep soon too."
"I was
just about to sleep!"
"Sorry."
She's
my daughter. That's how I introduced her to people. Her parents died not too
long ago and she was brought up by her father's closest friend, Barret.
Tifa
learned a lot about Marlene ever since she met Barret and travelled around with
him. It was only natural that Barret entrusted Marlene to Tifa when he decided
to go on a journey to settle his past.
Tifa
stopped washing and followed Marlene inside. In the children's room were two
beds lined up next to one another. There, Denzel laid sound asleep. The
Geostigma scar on the eight year old's forehead was a painful sight. Nothing
could be done to ease the symptoms as the boy suffered and his conditions wasn't
improving at all either. Denzel grimaced a little as Tifa wiped away the pus
from the scar on his soaked forehead, but he continued to sleep. Marlene who had
watched over Denzel, called out Tifa's name after she tucked herself up in her
own bed.
"You still
feel lonely even with us here, don't you?"
"...I'm
sorry," Tifa answered honestly.
"It's OK.
We're the same."
"I see."
"I wonder
where Cloud is."
Tifa hung
her head, unable to answer. Cloud was in Midgar somewhere. At first, she
imagined how the worse could have happened. Maybe he had an accident when he
went out on one of his jobs or he was attacked by some monster.
She soon
found out that he was still out there doing jobs. There were people who had seen
him. He just left the house that's all. Tifa had tried to convince the children
that there were no problems but she lost her composure. Before long, the
children realized something had happened.
"Why did
he leave?"
I
didn't know. Maybe all kinds of problems had cropped up between us.
But Tifa
remembered that smile on Cloud's face when she last saw him. It had that
kindness that made her think everything was all right.
I
wonder if I was mistaken.
******
One fated
day, Meteor came shooting down from outer space. Flowing out from the seams of
the Planet, the Lifestream merged together and destroyed it. Tifa had watched
the scene together with her companions from the sky.
I
wished everything was just washed away. Wash away my past. Our past. Maybe I too
felt the inevitable terror that was going to come with the relief brought by the
end of the battle.
I
wondered if I could continue living the way I was.
When
someone was faced with the same question, then she would tell them that they
should live on no matter what happened. But now that it was about her, she was
unsure.
Thanks to Shinra Inc's development of Mako energy, the world was prospering.
Light overflowed the ground's surface but at the same time, something much
darker was happening. The anti-Shinra group, "Avalanche" took action to let the
world know what that darkness was.
Mako
energy was leading Planet to its destruction. Despite Avalanche's underground
activity, little was achieved and the world remained unchanged. Once you
understood the benefits of Mako, it was hard to turn your back against it. In an
effort to change the situation, Avalanche chose to take more extreme action. In
the Mako city of Midgar where large amounts of Mako energy was consumed and lots
of people lived, they blew up one of the reactors.
Due to a
miscalculation in the bomb they made, the area that got destroyed was greater
than they had planned. The surrounding areas of the Mako reactor was also
destroyed. In response to the incident, Shinra Inc was on the move to eliminate
Avalanche. An entire sector of Midgar where Avalanche's hideout resided and many
residents were was completely destroyed. It was a brutal act by Shinra in order
to destroy the small rebel group Avalanche. In the end after the incident,
Avalanche became the reason why countless innocent lives were lost.
That
Avalanche was the group Tifa joined.
She had
thought that sacrifices were more or less inevitable for their great goal. They
were always ready to throw their lives away too. But after the catastrophe, Tifa
and the others lost their stance on their original purpose. Amidst their
struggle with Shinra Inc, they soon found themselves fighting the powerful
Sephiroth. Tifa along with her childhood friend Cloud, the other remaining
survivor of Avalanche Barret, Aeris who they met during all the chaos and Red
XIII, they set out on their journey. After going through some more events, Cid,
Cait Sith, Yuffie and Vincent also became her companions.
It seemed
a new friendship was blooming but as if there was a price to pay, Aerith's life
was taken away.
Even so,
the journey was not over. Looking back at the course of their journey, Tifa
could feel that their fight, whether it was a win or loss, was coming to a
close.
It all
started when I was still a young girl. There was some trouble in the Mako
reactor that was built near my hometown of Nibelheim that threatened our safety.
Sephiroth was dispatched by Shinra to resolve the problem but he killed my
father.
I couldn't bear the hatred I had for Shinra
and Sephiroth. Then I joined Avalanche. Yes. That was the start of the
resentment I had for them inside me. The slogans Avalanche used about how they
were anti-Shinra and anti-Mako was just what I I needed to hide my true motive.
But too many lives were sacrificed while we tried to save the Planet. If all
that was just for my personal revenge then...
The sin held a role deep in Tifa's heart.
She
wondered if she could live on with those feelings. Tifa was afraid of her
future. She looked down from the sky towards the ground.
Meanwhile,
Cloud was sitting next to her gazing at the same scenery but was smiling
peacefully. It was a smile that she hadn't seen before during their journey.
Cloud noticed her gaze and asked, "What's wrong?"
"Cloud,
you're smiling."
"I am?"
"Yeah."
"Everything starts now. A new..." Cloud looked for the right words, "A new
life."
"I'm going
to live. I think that's the only way I can be forgiven. We've been through...
all sorts of things."
"I guess
you're right..."
"But when
I think about how many times I've thought about starting a new life, it's
funny."
"Why?"
"I've
always failed to do it."
"That's
not funny."
"...I
think it will be all right this time."
Cloud
became very quiet for a moment. Then he said, "Because you're with me."
"But I've
always been with you."
"That's
how it will be starting from tomorrow," Cloud replied smiling again.
******
Tifa went
to see Aerith together with her companions. Aerith who was now at the bottom of
the Forgotten City's spring. The world she wanted to save in exchange for her
life would surely be all right now. That's what they were told. Tifa heard a
voice asking if she was all right. She didn't know if it was Aerith's voice or
her own. She couldn't help it but started crying. Right after Sephiroth took
Aerith's life, Tifa felt no grief towards her death. There was sadness but that
sadness was made into more anger and hatred she had towards the enemy. At least
now she understood the sadness and pain she felt, tearing her heart apart as she
visited the place. Being a member of Avalanche and being with a large group of
people gave her these feelings. The tears wouldn't stop.
"I'm
sorry, I'm really sorry."
She felt
Cloud's hand on her shoulder. He held onto her firmly so that she wouldn't go
anywhere. For now, she was just going to let herself cry as much as she felt
like. Then she was going to leave the rest to him.
Alone, she
just didn't know what she could do.
******
Tifa and
the companions that she was with for the whole trial of the journey seperated
just as easily as they joined. Vincent left just like one of those passengers
that would sit next to you on a train. Yuffie protested. It just wasn't right
for them to split up this way after all they've been through as friends. Barret
was the one who said to her that they could see each other whenever they wanted
if they all lived. Or maybe it was Cid. After promising to reunite one day,
Tifa, Cloud and Barret seperated from the others leaving for Corel Town. It was
Barret's hometown. The tragedies that occurred there because of Mako was what
started everything for him. Standing silently for a moment, he told the others
not to follow him. He too had to go on living bearing sins.
They also
went to Nilbeim, Tifa and Cloud's hometown. They didn't feel any nostalgia. They
were reminded clearly of the incident that took place in the town.
"I
shouldn't have come, " said Cloud. "It draws me back to the past."
Cloud's
words spokeout for the way Tifa felt too.
******
They then
went to Kalm. There waiting for them was Aerith's foster mother Elymyra and the
girl that was left in her care, Marlene. Two of Elmyra's relatives had a house
in Kalm and that was where they stayed. Barret and Marlene were happy to see
each other again. Cloud told Elmyra what had happened to Aerith.
There were
no signs how they accepted what had happened but Tifa, Cloud and Barret
apologized for not being able to save Aerith.
"You all
done what you could. There's no need for you to apologize," said Elmyra.
Tifa and
the others couldn't say anything in reply.
Did we
really do all we could?
There were many people who arrived in Kalm to take refuge. The normal houses
became emergency shelters. The residents of Kalm didn't charge them even though
they could. Even the inn provided rooms for the people in need for free. It was
like everyone was cooperating to rebuild the world.
"Come on,
lets go home," said Cloud.
"Where
to?" Barret asked.
"Our
suspended reality."
"What the
hell do you mean by that?"
"Our
normal lives."
"And where
do we have something like that?"
"We'll
find one." Cloud looked at Tifa and said, "Right?"
"Yeah!"
cried the cheerful Marlene. Tifa too nodded but just like Barret, she wondered
where they had a normal life.
The four
of them arrived back at Midgar. The city had recovered from all the shock and
chaos that took place right after Meteor was destroyed. People were on the move
again looking towards their future... No, their present lives for the time
being. Seeing this made Tifa blame herself again. When she looked at Midgar from
the sky she wished everything was just got washed away. She didn't know there
were still so many lives here. Tifa couldn't forgive herself for being so
selfish. She told Cloud and Barret what she was thinking when they were on the
airship. Barret and Cloud understood how she felt and agreed. But they reminded
her that no matter where they were or what they were doing, they wouldn't be
able to get away from the sins in their consciousness.
"Since
that's the case, we'll live on. We'll live on until we pay back for our sins.
It's the only way," said Barret.
When Tifa and Cloud were alone, Cloud said to her, "It's not like you to be
troubled by your thoughts."
"It's...
Just the way I am."
"No.
You're much more cheerful and strong. If you've forgotten the way you were then,
I'll be there to remind you."
"You
really will?"
"Probably," Cloud said blushing.
******
The first
thing they done was gather information in and around Midgar. There was a lack of
materials but importantly, there wasn't any information being passed around
about where to get things. The three of them split up and went around sharing
the information they gathered with those who were in need, about where they
could get the things they wanted. They helped the people that couldn't move on
their own. At night, they slept under a plate in Midgar where rumours had it
that it could fall anytime.
One day,
Barret came back with a wine jar, a heater and various fruits. They were given
to him as thanks for helping someone dismantle a house.
"Just
watch," Barret told them as he skillfully started working on some cooking that
they've never seen before. The alcohol had been left to stand for two weeks
since then. They found out that it was some special wine made in the town of
Corel. Tifa and Cloud sipped their wine slowly. Barret was drinking so much that
you could probably bathe in the amount he drank. He looked like he was enjoying
it as he talked about his memories of the peaceful times. Drunk, he fell into a
well. It's been a long time since Tifa and Cloud burst out laughing.
The next
day, Barret said in a serious tone, "How about we started a business and sold
this wine?"
"We?"
Cloud asked, surprised.
"Of
course, you idiot! We can't draw customers! Tifa will have to do it."
"Me?"
"You're
good at it."
Not long
ago, Avalanche's hideout was at a bar named Seventh Heaven. It was what funded
the members lives and activities. Tifa was the barmaid there or more accurately,
the bar's manager. Barret continued.
"From my
point of view, the people of Midgar can be split into two types. Those dilly
dallying around who still can't accept what's happened to the city and those who
are working to live on. I understand how both types of people are feeling.
Everyone is facing their problems but they're just coping with it in different
ways right? The solution to everyone's problem is wine."
"Why is
that?"
"I dunno.
But when we were half drunk yesterday, we laughed. We forgot all sorts of things
right? That's the moment we're after."
"Yeah, I
guess you're right."
"Times
like that are important ain't they? Hey Tifa, what do you think?"
Tifa
couldn't answer right away. She understood what Barret was saying but, opening
up a bar felt like going back to the times of Avalanche again. Cloud spoke up.
"Tifa,
lets give it a go. If it gets too tough, we can just stop."
"It won't
be tough. If Tifa doesn't work she'll end up thinkin' about all sorts of things.
Then she'll end up not being able to do anything."
That might
have been true.
The three
of them made preparations. They decided to build their new business in the new
city of Edge that was north of Midgar.
All the
people that Barret and Cloud had helped before gathered together. They all
transported all the materials that would be used to build parts of the store
such as the walls and pillars.
Barret
shouted out his orders while Cloud went around correcting them in a low voice.
Tifa on the other hand learned how to make Corel's wine and improved it so that
it was better to drink. She also thought of the food she could put on their menu
using the steady supply of ingredients they could use. Marlene was like a mascot
to the people who helped build their bar. It was as if she was emphasizing at
how she was going to be the new barmaid. It was hardwork solving problems that
arised everyday but it was some fulfilment for them. Sometimes Tifa would find
herself feeling guilty for her sins when she smiled but, she would always get
interrupted as someone calls her over to ask about something.
A few days
more and they might be able to open the new bar, Cloud said. Barret asked what
they were going to do about the name. There were a few suggestions but Cloud's
ones were all meaningless and boring while Barret's ones made them think of
monsters. In the end, it was Tifa who had to decide. The two men promised her
that they wouldn't complain no matter what the name was. But it was nearing
opening day and Tifa didn't have the time to think about it with all the work
she had to do. One day, Marlene came and asked them what they were going to do
about the bar's name.
"We're
still thinking about it."
"I wish it
was Seventh Heaven," said Marlene. It was a name Tifa wanted to avoid.
Just
having the past in me was enough. There was no need to go to the trouble of
making a name that would remind me of it.
"Why?"
"Because
it was fun. If we make it Seventh Heaven we'll have fun again."
We had
forgotten how adults had ambitions but, Marlene had nothing to do with them. To
her, Seventh Heaven was a happy home where Barret, Tifa and her friends were.
"Hmmmm,
Seventh Heaven..."
I
couldn't erase my past. I could only compromise and live on.
Tifa
decided she was ready.
The first
day of Seventh Heaven's opening was a great success. The Corel wine was
something that you could make yourself when you felt like it so the price was
nothing special. Because of the limited ingredients they had, they couldn't make
any special dishes. Even so, people seeked places like this. A place where they
could be with friends while drinking. A place where you could get over the
sadness of reality or maybe forget about reality and think about the future.
People who didn't have money were allowed to trade items to get a drink. A
variety of juice were prepared too so that children could also go inside. They
only served the ones that Marlene tried and liked. She was someone who couldn't
be missing out on anything. Marlene was the waitress who served until not too
late into the night. Those who drank too much were ordered to go home without
any hesitation.
Barret was
sipping his wine in a corner. Maybe he was planning to be the bouncer. Cloud's
job was to obtain the ingredients they needed for their food and wine. He didn't
know most of the names of the fruit and vegetables. At first, Tifa was surprised
but when she thought about the life that Cloud had, it couldn't be helped. It
was funny when she thought about how Cloud's new life was going to start by
remembering the names of vegetables. No, I musn't laugh, Tifa thought to
herself.
Cloud
wasn't good at socializing. He wasn't good at communicating but yet, he would go
negotiate somewhere to obtain the ingredients they needed. The ingredients had a
value greater than what they were worth. Cloud was moving on too.
After the
first week of opening, Barret told the others that he was going to leave on a
journey seeing how well the business was going now. He was going to leave
Marlene behind.
"I wanna
go on a journey to settle my past."
Cloud
nodded as if he understood.
"Settle
your past...? But I want to do that too."
"You guys
can do that here. Don't just take. Try proving that you can give too."
Marlene who had always slept with Tifa, slept with her foster father Barret the
night before he left. Their conversations could be heard late into the night.
Early next
morning, Barret setoff.
Behind him
Marlene shouted, "Send me some letters! Phone too!"
Barret
raised his artificial right arm up that had a machine gun attached to it. He
kept walking without looking back. It was the back of a figure who had no other
way to live than to fight.
I
wonder just what kind of life he will find. I prayed that he would be able to
stay far away from war. Not just take. I prayed he would be able to prove that
he could give too.
"Make sure
you be a "nice" kid!"
Cloud and
Tifa glanced at each other, as they heard Barret's words. Be a "nice" kid?
"I'll take
care of Cloud and Tifa!"
Barret
turned round and shouted, "Take care!" His voice was a little shaky.
"Keep the
family together and keep at it!"
******
Friends were a necessity to me so that I could live on without being supressed
by the sins in my consciousness. Even if they were fellow companions that had
the same wounds. Even if they were fellow companions who were burdened with the
same sins. We couldn't live without comforting each other and encouraging each
other.
Maybe
you could call that family. We just had to keep the family together and do our
best.
Tifa
thought she could get over anything being with friends that she could call
family.
******
It's been
several months since they opened the bar. There was a call from Cloud who went
to collect their supply of ingredients. He wanted to discuss the privilege of
how much one person could eat and drink for free during their lifetime at
Seventh Heaven. Tifa knew what he wanted to say without listening to his story.
She was sure there was something Cloud wanted to exchange that odd privilege for
no matter what.
It was
night and Cloud came back on a bike. It was a model that they had never seen
before. Since then, he had been adjusting it whenever he could spare the time in
between his job. He brought an engineer that he knew from somewhere to discuss
about modifying his bike. It seemed a few other people came to help Cloud
complete the modifications. Marlene and her young neighbourhood friends also
watched. The scene reassured Tifa that they were really becoming a family in the
world.
There were
many times when Cloud had to leave Midgar for their supplies. The destination
was mainly Kalm. He had to rent a bike or a truck or sometimes a chocobo but
now, he had his own bike. Occasionally it seemed he would travel very far and
manage to get some rare goods.
One night,
there was a call for Cloud. After talking on the phone for a while, Cloud said
he had to go out for a while.
"Where are
you going?"
"How
should I tell you this..."
Cloud told
Tifa how there had many times when he was asked to deliver something while
returning with supplies. The caller was one of the store owners who shared some
of his vegetables with them. It seemed there was something that he wanted Cloud
to deliver before the night was over by all means. Cloud gazed at Tifa like a
kid who just had his secrets revealed.
"Why are
you looking at me like that?
"Well...
I'm sorry I kept quiet about it."
"About
what?"
"Doing
what I wanted."
Tifa burst
out laughing. Cloud went on about how he got paid a little for delivering items.
He felt guilty spending it all on the modifications for his bike. Tifa thought
he was just like a kid. It may have been a little sad that Cloud had found
another world that she didn't know about but, the fact that his world was
expanding was a welcoming thought. Yes, it was similar to the feelings a mother
would have. Tifa walked Cloud outside and was enjoying the new feeling that was
blooming in her.
******
Tifa was
able to live along with the sins in her conciousness now but, she hadn't
forgotten about them. Someday, the day may come when she will be punished. Until
that day comes, Tifa was going to look ahead and live on. She was going to live
not just taking but, proving that she herself can give too.
******
Tifa
seriously encouraged Cloud to run a delivery service. They could just take
requests at the bar. As for dealing with calls, Marlene or herself could do it.
Cloud hesitated but, after thinking about it for one night, he accepted the
suggestion. He was just being hesitant again after all.
And so,
that was the beginning of the Strife Delivery Service. Midgar was the centre of
their business but they also delivered all over the world. Only to the areas
that Cloud could reach by bike, though. Cloud smiled at how he was like a big
advertisement. His job was also a big success. It was a time when sending things
weren't so easy for people who wanted to. Monsters were still lurking around and
there were roads that were built in areas that could breakup due to the
Lifestream bursting out. This job of travelling around the world wasn't
something that anyone could do. It was a job he had been wanting. Tifa thought
it was wonderful how Cloud, who wasn't very sociable, was doing a job that
connected people through his delivery service.
After Cloud started his delivery service, their "family" life was affected
greatly. It wasn't too good. Cloud was usually not at home apart from mornings
and late night. And of course, that meant there were less chances for the three
of them to have conversations together. Tifa tried closing the bar for a day
every week but it didn't stop Cloud from doing his job. Cloud couldn't turn down
requests. Although Tifa wanted everyone to be able to take some time off
together now and then, she decided that it was too selfish of her. During that
time, it was Marlene who noticed a change in Cloud. She told Tifa how Cloud
would sometimes look up at the sky and not pay attention to her.
Cloud
never really approached Marlene to talk in the first place but, I'm sure he
never ignored her before when she talked to him. I knew that Cloud had his own
ways of getting along with Marlene. I thought about how there were people
everywhere that weren't good with children but had their own ways of coping with
them.
I told
her that Cloud was probably just tired but it bothered me. Marlene was a child
who was sensitive about the changes in adults.
During
their holiday, Tifa and Marlene were cleaning the room that was now Cloud's
office. There were many papers that laid scattered about unsorted. One of them
caught Tifa's eye.
Client
Name - Elmyra Gainsborough
Delivery Item - Bouquet
Destination - The Forgotten City
Tifa put
the paper away with the others as if nothing happened. But she was trembling
severely. Transporting mail around the world meant Cloud was travelling around
his past too. She knew that Cloud was in great pain because he couldn't protect
Aerith. Cloud was on the verge of overcoming it but now, going back to the place
where he and Aerith got seperated meant that his sorrow and regret was going to
tear his heart apart once again.
It was
night and they had closed the bar. Cloud was drinking wine even though he rarely
does. He drained his glass. Tifa hesitated before going over and filling his
glass.
"Shall I
join you?" There was something she wanted to talk to him about.
"I want to
drink alone."
Hearing
that, Tifa lost control and said, "Then drink in your room."
Barret had called a few times. Most of the time, he wouldn't talk about himself
but instead, asked more about how Marlene was doing. Then everytime he would end
the call by having a little chat with Marlene. Marlene wondered if Tifa was
listening or not before she told Barret in a sad voice, "Cloud and Tifa aren't
getting along very well."
No matter
what feelings Cloud and Tifa had between them, they couldn't drag Marlene into
it Tifa thought to herself.
Tifa forced herself to talk to Cloud. When Marlene was near, she would pick
something positive, something that wouldn't turn the conversation into a serious
matter. Cloud was bewildered at the way Tifa changed but guessing at what she
was trying to do, he went along with the mood and talked to her. Even Marlene
joined in with their conversations.
I
thought it went pretty well. But I couldn't talk about what I really wanted to
talk about. I didn't know what to say.
One
morning, Tifa shared a story she heard from a customer that seemed funny.
"That's
really something that can't be done," Cloud thought aloud.
"It can't
be done!" Marlene cried out.
All the
adults were surprised and looked at Marlene.
"You've
told us that story before! Cloud just gives the same answer everytime!"
It didn't go well but we were together.We were family. We lived in the same
house and we were lived by keeping the family together. Maybe there wasn't much
conversation or smiles. But we were family, Tifa thought to herself. No, it was
what she made herself think.
After
making certain that Cloud was asleep, she said to him.
"We'll be
all right, won't we?"
Of course,
there was no answer. Only the sound of Cloud sleeping could be heard. Tifa
wondered if the fact that he was sleeping here meant that he was part of the
family.
"Do you
love me?"
Cloud woke
up, a dubious look on his face.
"Hey,
Cloud. Do you love Marlene?"
"Yeah. But
sometimes I don't know how to approach her."
"Even
though we've been together for sometime?"
"Maybe
that just isn't enough."
"Even we
aren't enough for you?"
Cloud
didn't answer.
"Sorry for
asking some strange things."
"Don't
apologize. It's my problem."
Cloud
closed his eyes.
"Lets work
hard together."
Cloud
didn't answer.
Not long after that, Cloud brought Denzel home with him. Denzel was already
unconcious when he was brought into the bar. It was Geostigma. Cloud said the
syndromes looked like they just started not long ago. As Tifa nursed Denzel, she
thought of how there many children who were also infected with the same disease.
There were many facilities setup for children who had lost their parents. Yet,
why did Cloud bring Denzel here? Just when Tifa was going to ask him, Cloud
muttered something.
"This kid
came to my place."
"What do
you mean?"
"I
mean..."
******
After
Denzel recovered, she listened to Denzel's story about everything that happened
to him before he arrived here. Then she thought to herself that he was meant to
come here. He was one of the victims when Sector Seven was destroyed.
Sector
Seven was destroyed was because of us. That's why I had to take responsibility
and raise him. He didn't go to Cloud's place. He met Cloud so that he could come
to my place.
Tifa
discussed with Cloud and Marlene about how she wanted to welcome Denzel into
their family. Cloud nodded silently but Marlene was full of joy.
At first,
Denzel was persistent in helping them as thanks for taking care of him but, his
heart began opening to them as he helped Cloud with his job and around the bar.
It was
night and the bar was closed. While cleaning up in the galley, Tifa looked up
towards the centre table. There sat the manager of Strife Delivery Service,
Cloud and his two assistants, Marlene and Denzel. Denzel often suffered because
of Geostigma but on the days when he didn't have a fever or any pain, he would
hang around with Cloud. Everyday, Cloud would spend half his day out. So once he
was home, it was Denzel's precious time to spend with his hero. Yes, Cloud was a
hero to Denzel. Riding on his bike, saving Denzel as he fought with terrors of
death when the symptoms of Geostigma erupted... It was everything that Denzel
had been yearning for. Denzel wanted to know ask Cloud about everything. He
would keep asking Tifa questions that she could answer until Cloud returned
home. Once, Tifa half jokingly said to Denzel that she was the one cooking their
meals everyday. Denzel also said in an grown up manner that he cleaned the house
and the bar everyday too.
It was
true and he done a very thorough job of cleaning. When he was asked if it was
his passed away mother who taught him how to clean, he answered no. The
following day, Tifa asked Cloud who Denzel's cleaning teacher was. He had told
Cloud about it. Tifa was a little hurt.
I was
troubled at why Denzel told Cloud and didn't tell me. One day I tried asking a
customer that was about the same age as Denzel about it. His answer was that
boys were just like that. So there really weren't any problems. We were just a
normal family.
The answer
didn't make her understand them more but, the words "normal family" relieved
Tifa.
After the
bar was closed, the usual three people sat around the table. It wouldn't be a
surprise if someone said it was a young father with his two children. If Tifa
felt like it, she could go over to that table and be welcomed with smiles.
Cloud laid
out a map on the table. He was making sure of the routes that he was going to
take to do deliveries the next day. Denzel and Marlene was sorting out the
papers. When there were any words that Marlene couldn't read, she asked Denzel.
Denzel would then teach Marlene like an older brother. When there were words
that even Denzel couldn't read, he would ask Cloud. Cloud had the habit of
handing them a pen after telling them how to read them. He told them that if
they couldn't write the words then they wouldn't be able to remember them
either. The various names of places on the papers made the children curious and
they asked Cloud what they were like. Cloud's descriptions were simple. There
are lots of people. There are very little people. There's lots of monsters so
it's dangerous. Taking the north route is safer... They were descriptions that
would make you ask, "is that all?" but the children seemed content. Soon, Tifa
wanted to talk a little about the places too. When she added in more detail,
Denzel would ask Cloud if it was true. It annoyed Tifa a little. But she also
thought it was all right. That's probabbly what normal families were like.
Maybe they
became a real family after Denzel arrived. Cloud was clearly taking less jobs.
At night, he would always make sure he had time to spend with the children. The
silly little conversations he had with Tifa were also back.
******
"So the
problem was resolved?"
"What
problem?"
"Your
problem."
"Yeah..."
Cloud
thought about it.
"It's OK
if you don't want to tell me."
"I can't
really explain it well..." Cloud warned before starting to talk.
"The
problem isn't resolved. Well, I don't think it will be resolved for a long time
to come. You can't retrieve lives that have been lost."
Tifa
nodded silently.
"But maybe
we can still save those lives that are endangered just now. Maybe even I can do
it."
"You mean
Denzel?"
"Yeah."
"Hey, do
you remember what you said when you brought Denzel here?"
"What did
I say?"
"You said
Denzel came to your place."
"Well..."
Cloud looked like a kid that about to be scolded as usual.
"Tell me.
I'll decide whether I'm angry or not after I listen."
Cloud
nodded and continued.
"Denzel
had collapsed in front of the church where Aerith used to be. That's why I
thought Aerith lead him to "my place"".
Saying all
that in one breathe, Cloud looked away.
"You went
to the church."
"I wasn't
planning to hide there."
"You were
hiding."
"I'm
sorry."
"I didn't
say you couldn't go. But next time, I'll go together with you."
"I
understand."
"And
you're wrong, Cloud."
Cloud
looked dubiously at Tifa.
"Aerith
didn't bring Denzel to you."
"Yeah,
that's what I thought too."
"Aerith
brought that child to us, didn't she?"
Cloud
gazed at Tifa and finally smiled. It had that kindness that made her think
everything was all right.
******
Days after
having that conversation, Cloud left. Tifa wondered if the smile she saw was
just an illusion. After kissing the sleeping children on the face, she went into
Cloud's office. Brushing away the dust on the family photo they took, she tried
calling him. After several rings, the messaging service took over.
Case
of Tifa, End.